live and die for fashion

so, on bravo tv’s THE FASHION SHOW, daniella is a 22 year old fresh out of college.  she’s young, cocky, and full of talent and she’s going for her dreams with all pistons firing.

i really want her to win.  like desperately.  and i’ll also be a little pissed if she wins.  part of me thinks anna has paid her dues and deserves the chance to come up to the big leagues and design her own collection.  part of me thinks anna is the better designer for struggling through it, but part of me also wants the young ingenue to get everything she’s ever wished for.

what on earth does this have to do with writing, or better yet, something other than my obsessive compulsive need to consume bravo tv?

i’m both of them at once.  part of me is still 22 and desperately hopeful that right out of the gates someone will give me my chance to shine and i will hit the ground running and get every chance i’ve ever wanted.  part of me still believes so hard core that just wishing it will bring it into reality, and part of me believes that if you’ve wanted something all your life, you deserve it, no matter how short the life.

and yet, part of me is starting to feel the weariness of not being 22.  the feeling that really, i could be at this so much longer until i get my big break.  i could be at this forever without getting the break.  the terrible fear that this won’t happen for a long, long time and i have to buckle down and accept that.  because i’ve told the universe from day one that i’m not giving up.

part of me is scared the universe is making me put my money–and my heart–where my mouth is.

i don’t know what it says, but i voted for daniella.  and i’m still hoping to get called into the big leagues every single day.  it’s exhausting, but i’ll never stop hoping, trying, and fighting. hang in there anna.

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