Lucky and Frustrated

I am.  I am so lucky for my present situation--I'm living with very few bills, rent free (in my mom's house, but hey, that's ok) which means I don't have to do a ton of work to.  On top of that, the work that I do have to do is pretty good--I can do it from home, it's interesting, and I genuinely like it.

But we all know that what I really want to be doing is writing my novels full time, writing my own work based on my own concepts.  I want a career as a novelist.  And it has never been so tough as it has been this week.

Arianna is flying off with renewed energy, and it's gathering momentum as it goes.  All the groundwork has been laid and now it's time to roll, and Arianna is really rolling.  In addition to which, I've found a research vein I really want to pursue for the Robin Hood story, and I'm itching to try my hand at song writing (and do some research for that, too!).  I feel pulled in all these different directions, and that's before I put in a solid week's work.

All I want to do is write fiction full time, even if it's not with much of a profit margin.  It would be nice if I could finance my own space to do that, but not entirely necessary.  I just want a chance to think about nothing other than my characters.

But, like I said, I'm lucky.  I just wish I could be....luckier!