Creativity and Stress

What a day!  So I'm going a little bananas because both of my major freelancing jobs have deadlines coming up and they need more time rather than less, which is good--right?  Maybe!  I'm still not resolved about my money and time issues, and I'm wondering if one of my freelancing jobs isn't worth the time I spend on it, which is sad because I enjoy the work.  I don't know, it's all up in the air.

And complicating the matter is the fact that I've never felt more inspired on my various projects.  Seriously!  I just had the best meeting talking about songwriting and inspiration is just like sparking through my head, and I literally just want to take a week and read some books to get in the groove, and then just get in the zone and write lyrics and novels.

It makes me think that this is why people quit--not because they give up on their dreams, but because it's like spinning a toilet paper roll and then covering where the paper comes out so the whole thing balls up and tangles and twists.  If you don't let the inspiration out steadily, it seems like the whole system might just get jammed up and freeze.

Not loving it.

Especially since due to volume of work currently, my Saturday writing day is cancelled.

Really world?  Come on.

Sigh.